聽到成年人說「活得好厭世」，我總會聯想到小朋友脫口而出的「好無聊」。我們都曾幼稚、曾覺得無聊，隨著見聞增長，對世界的觀點自然會改變。

當我理解身體累積的囤積、耗損與記憶，一方面看清人類疾病的樣貌，一方面同理那些遠離生命本質、情緒受困的人。

厭世感可以是短暫的情緒閉鎖，也可以是對生存徹底灰心喪志的結果。我長期觀察並記錄不快樂的發展軌跡，深刻體會到：不珍惜擁有人身，是人類普遍的迷失。

我的理解是：既然生而為人，就該享受成為「最高等生物」的稀有機運，並正面迎接生命送來的所有考驗。

那麼，「有身皆苦」究竟要告訴我們什麼？環境裡的紛爭、人際之間的對立，又在提醒我們什麼？

我嘗試營造一個遠離功利、降低商業氛圍的場域，保留一點空隙，觀察人的意識與行為。即使我所倡導的只是每個人都具備的天賦：身體的智慧，我仍能看見眼神的糾結，仍能感受到身心普遍的分離。

 

真心理解不快樂的面容，因為我曾經歷過。就讀北醫時，我曾有過輕生的念頭，雖沒有勇氣付諸行動，只想藉此吸引父母的關注。

真相就是：我不快樂。我不懂生命的價值，更不懂為什麼讀書要讀得這麼痛苦。記得當時心底充滿一種「沒人愛、沒人懂」的憤怒。

如果當時再多一些憂鬱、再多一點衝動，或許真會走到教學大樓頂樓，一躍而下。許多人就在這種自我封鎖的情緒裡，斷送了人生。

苦，是未解的生命習題。進入職場前十年，我依然懵懂，拼命想證明什麼，卻不清楚自己該做什麼。回想起來，那是一段揮霍人生、不懂珍惜的歲月。

我們常說「有錢出錢、有力出力」，但還有一種幫助方式是「有心出心」。

若我能早點領悟擁有人身的價值，若我能早點明白生命的意義在於幫助他人，我的人生不必走那麼長的冤枉路。

人必須在生命中培養助人的實力，我深信，在培養助人的自信路上，不會有憂鬱，不會厭世。社會最缺乏的，正是助人的身教與氛圍。

 

回想當年失落的學生時代，如果身邊有一位懂我的人，如果父母能理解我情緒低落的原因，如果我能鼓起勇氣向喜歡的女生表白……

說到底，是自己膽怯，也不懂何謂親力親為。父親口中的「井底之蛙」，長輩眼裡的「溫室花朵」，似乎註定會憂鬱、會提早凋謝。

那確實是一段痛苦的歲月，許多疼痛從原生家庭萌芽，許多難以溝通的性格特質在童年被種下。每天睜開眼，就是考試、成績，或是一段與內心意志不相容的人生。

那個階段，我的靈魂不知哭了多少回合。他看著我如此不快樂卻無能為力，每天目睹我掙扎，卻喚不醒我的無知。

直到有一天，我回顧人生的每一個課題，幾乎都能連線到今日的所有因緣。生命確實嚴苛，讓我想問：「『有身皆苦』，說的不就是這種感受嗎？」

然而，當我寫下「生命無限可能」時，才明白禍福相倚、苦樂相伴。不曾跌倒，何來起身？不經考驗，何來成長？不受磨難，何來榮耀？

 

想起美國歌手尼爾戴蒙（Neil Diamond）年輕時的作品《Song Sung Blue》，當年我不懂歌詞意境，以為它是一首憂鬱的歌。

事實上，正因為把憂鬱唱了出來，不歡喜才得以釋放。尼爾戴蒙在後期演唱會甚至說明：這不是一首悲傷的歌，而是一首快樂的歌。

我對負面情緒的做法就是：說出來，把它丟掉。人們常說：「關鍵不是發生了什麼，而是你如何回應。」要如何正面解讀一切？要如何正面解讀逆境？

我的答案是：相信困境一定有圓滿的解決方式，因為世上沒有解不開的結。

回想人生走過的每一道難關，回想在推廣「身體之道」過程中遇到的阻礙，不是都一一化解？不是都被自己的韌性擺平了？

如果擁有人身是生命最珍貴的禮物，那麼，隨之而來的所有考驗，不也都是禮物的一部分？

在重新定義生命價值、釐清病痛真相之後，我終於能帶著愉悅，歌頌「有身皆苦」，原來，這是一首禮讚生命的歌。

 

（年紀越大，生命越顯美麗。）

 

“Having a Body Is Suffering” — A Positive Interpretation of Life

When I hear adults say, “Life feels so bleak,” I can’t help but think of children blurting out, “I’m so bored.” We’ve all been childish, we’ve all been bored, but as our knowledge grows, our perspective on the world inevitably changes.

As I came to understand the accumulation, depletion, and memory stored in the body, I not only saw clearly the nature of human illness, but also developed empathy for those whose emotions are trapped and whose lives have drifted away from their essence.

This sense of weariness with life can be a fleeting shutdown of emotions, or a deep disheartenment with existence itself. Through long-term observation and documenting the trajectory of unhappiness, I came to realize that failing to cherish one’s human existence is one of humanity’s most common forms of delusion.

My understanding is this: since we are born human, we should celebrate this rare chance to be the “highest life form” and face all the trials life sends us with open arms.

So what does “having a body is suffering” really mean? What are the conflicts and oppositions in our environment trying to tell us?

I’ve tried to create a space far removed from utilitarian pressures, stripped of excessive commercial noise, leaving room to observe human consciousness and behavior. Even though what I advocate is nothing more than the natural wisdom of the body — a gift we all possess — I still see tangled expressions in people’s eyes, still sense a pervasive disconnection between body and mind.
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Suffering: Life’s Unsolved Equation

I know the face of unhappiness intimately — I have worn it myself. During my years at medical school, I once had suicidal thoughts. I never had the courage to act on them; I only wanted to provoke my parents’ attention.

The truth was simple: I was unhappy. I didn’t understand the value of life, nor why studying had to be so painful. I remember being filled with the anger of feeling unloved and unseen.

If I had been more depressed or a bit more impulsive, I might have climbed to the rooftop of the teaching building and jumped. Many people lose their lives this way, locked inside their own emotions.

Suffering is life’s unsolved equation. In my first ten years in the workforce, I was still fumbling, desperate to prove something, but not even sure what I was meant to do. Looking back, those were years wasted — a time of not cherishing life.

We often say, “If you have money, give money; if you have strength, give strength.” But there is another way to give: “If you have heart, give heart.”

If I had understood earlier the value of having a human body, if I had realized sooner that life’s meaning lies in helping others, I might not have taken such a long detour.

I believe we must cultivate the ability to help others as part of our life’s training. On the path of building the confidence to help others, there is no room for depression, no space for weariness of life. What society lacks most is not knowledge but living examples and an atmosphere that inspire us to help one another.
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The Cry and Awakening of the Soul

When I look back on my lost student days, I wonder: what if someone had understood me then? What if my parents had recognized the reason behind my low moods? What if I had had the courage to confess to the girl I liked?

In the end, it was my own timidity — and my failure to understand what it means to take responsibility. The “frog at the bottom of the well,” as my father called me, was bound to be depressed; the “greenhouse flower” my elders saw me as was destined to wither too soon.

It truly was a painful period. So many wounds germinate in childhood, so many difficult personality traits are planted early. Each day I awoke to face exams, grades, or a life that clashed with my will.

During that time, my soul must have cried countless times. It watched me suffer, powerless to intervene, unable to awaken my ignorance.

Only later, looking back on every stage of my life, could I connect each trial to the circumstances that shaped me today. Life is indeed harsh. I once asked myself: “Is this what ‘having a body is suffering’ means?”

But when I wrote the words “Life is full of infinite possibilities,” I realized that blessings and hardships are two sides of the same coin, that pain and joy are intertwined. Without falling, how could we learn to rise? Without tests, how could we grow? Without hardship, how could we taste the glory that follows?
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Singing the Suffering Away

I think of Neil Diamond’s early song Song Sung Blue. When I first heard it as a child, I thought it was a sad song. In fact, by singing out the sadness, the heaviness is released. Neil Diamond later explained in his concerts: this is not a sad song — it is a happy one.

My way of handling negative emotions is to speak them aloud — that is how I let them go.

People often say, “It’s not what happens to you that matters, but how you respond.” So how do we interpret everything positively? How do we find a positive frame even for adversity?

My answer is this: I trust that every hardship has a way to resolution — there is no knot that cannot be untied.

Looking back at every hurdle in my life, every obstacle in my journey of teaching the Way of the Body — haven’t they all been cleared? Haven’t they all been overcome by my own resilience?

If having a human body is life’s greatest gift, then surely every trial that comes with it is also part of that gift.

Having redefined the value of life and clarified the truth of suffering, I can now sing “having a body is suffering” with joy — because I now understand that this phrase is not a lament, but a hymn of praise for life itself.