我寫了很多文章，多到連自己也覺得不可思議。有時候我也不完全懂自己的那份自律：別人可以放輕鬆看電視休息，我卻選擇坐在電腦前，享受從無到有的那種愉悅。

日復一日的寫作成了例行，也成了靈感的溫床。把半年前的稿子翻出來讀時，我會驚訝的發現自己曾寫過那些文字，相似的主題在不同時空顯現出不同的意境。慶幸自己當時有記錄，也感謝自己培養了如此稀有的習慣。

寫作對我來說，是一種紀錄，而不是為了取悅誰。有人用心讀，我心懷感激；有些文章會被後人翻出探討，有些會被特定的人收藏珍藏，皆屬自然而然。

把文章分類、集結成書，成為我近年的出書流程。這與早年先有書名和大綱再寫作的方式不同；近兩年我多以疾病成因為題，鑽研得更深，我相信明年的新書仍會是引起討論的長壽作品。

問為何寫書，常會聽到各種答案。我不認同「為了賣書而寫書」的做法，賣書與寫書本是兩回事。若只為販售而生產，產品便失了本質；企業主若只盯著利潤，便難以做出真正優良的東西。

 

回頭想「自律養生」這個品牌如何開始，最初是圍繞斷食所需的態度，以及每週讓身體休息兩天、不進食的紀律。

我不是忽視利潤，只是把學習者的執行力放在首位；品牌文化重於產品本身，重於消費回饋。

十年前我在家安裝了淨水設備，當時花了不少時間篩選、評估市面上最好的產品。我不認同那台水機背後的行銷方式，願意把它介紹給需要的朋友，卻不希望朋友因為利益而投入銷售通路。

培養優質的養生習慣與獲利並非同一件事，自律養生希望學員先做對的事：很多人無法理解這種邏輯：賺錢不是目的，而是結果。

你的思路若停留在「治療」，就學不好養生；若堅持靠藥物維持健康，就永遠沒有機會真正領悟身體之道。說來容易，做起來難；而「自律養生」的文化，建立在「做」而非只在「說」。要把「自律」這個品牌刷亮，我與核心志工的身教必須成為常態；我們不能只是會說話的業務員，而要做得到。

 

生活困頓之下，多少人只把目光鎖定在領薪水上，這樣的思考只能過一天算一天，月光族的日子容易累積負債。被困在一份工作又無法自拔的人很多；他們的選擇往往是兼差、跑外送、或開車掙外快。

相比之下，銷售專業若能提供價值，態度與經驗也能成為長遠的資產。我強調的是「價值」，不是「價錢」。若一味談錢，便會失去文化；若只想到成交，反而難以成交。

在我們長斷食中談到的「平常心」，就是這個道理。若你一直擔心自己做不到，便真的難以做到；只要把注意力放在抵達的那一刻身體將呈現出的清淨，過程中的擔憂便會自然淡去。

我不是一個很會賺錢的人，特別強調這點，是為了回應那種認為「會賺錢才是王道」的社會價值觀，也為了回應外界對我們營運方式的不解。

我們的營運大方向是培養很多真正懂養生的人，這種社會價值會在什麼時候擴散，我不知道，也不期待短期回報，但我相信那一天終會來到。

 

在辛苦的工作中，我努力保持平常心，因為從未指望會有大收成，因此不會輕易失落；也不會因為被誤解或被人性踐踏而灰心。

曾有一段時間，工作中遭遇的態度幾乎把我情緒磨到要生病；那時我在淋浴中突然想起一篇文章的標題：《你得親自領受引發疾病的那些情緒反應》，那一刻我更確信自己在疾病觀察上的深度與真實。

我常想起莉莎·倫金醫師的話：當你的身體處於完全放鬆時，免疫力最強。這些體會來之不易；我走得很遠、很深，連自己也驚訝於所獲得的洞見。

至於誰懂我的領悟，誰不懂並不重要。修養生是一門艱深的學問：懂你的人，自會懂你的話；不懂的人，亦無妨。

每天提醒自己「繼續下去」，每晚告訴自己「明天後續」。我的工作常常難以被理解，有時甚至覺得或許只有上天才能懂。於是，我早已把結果交給了老天。

 

（盡力，比爭第一還重要。）

 

Leaving the Outcome to Heaven

I have written so many articles that even I find it hard to believe. At times, I don’t fully understand my own discipline: while others unwind by watching TV or resting, I choose to sit at my desk, savoring the joy of creating something out of nothing.

Daily writing has become both a routine and a breeding ground for inspiration. When I pull out a manuscript from six months ago, I’m often surprised to rediscover words I once wrote. Similar themes emerge in different times and spaces, yet carry a different atmosphere. I’m grateful that I recorded those ideas back then, and thankful to myself for cultivating such a rare habit.

Writing, for me, is a form of documentation, not a performance meant to please anyone. When someone reads with care, I feel gratitude. Some pieces may be revisited and discussed by future generations; some may be privately cherished by particular readers. All of this unfolds naturally.

In recent years, my publishing process has shifted: instead of beginning with a title and an outline as I once did, I now classify and compile articles into books. Over the past two years, I’ve delved deeper into the causes of disease, and I believe next year’s book will again spark discussion and endure.

When people ask why I write books, I hear many kinds of answers. But I don’t subscribe to the idea of “writing a book to sell a book.” Selling and writing are two different matters. If production exists only for profit, the essence of the work is lost; if an entrepreneur focuses solely on revenue, it’s hard to create anything truly excellent.

Looking back at how the “Selfasteam” brand began, it started with the attitude required for fasting — the discipline of giving the body two days each week to rest without food. I’m not ignoring profit; I simply prioritize the learner’s ability to follow through. In my view, brand culture matters more than the product itself, more than consumer rewards.

Ten years ago, I installed a water filtration system at home. I spent considerable time researching and evaluating the best products on the market. Although I disagreed with the marketing behind that particular machine, I still recommended it to friends who needed it — but I didn’t want them to join its sales channels just for profit.

Cultivating sound health habits is not the same as making money. Selfasteam wants learners to first do the right thing. Many people struggle to grasp this logic: earning money is not the purpose; it is the outcome.

If your mindset remains stuck on “treatment,” you’ll never learn true health cultivation; if you insist on relying on medication to stay healthy, you’ll never have the chance to truly understand the way of the body. It’s easy to say, but hard to do. The culture of Selfasteam is built on action, not just words. To keep the “Selfasteam” brand shining, the lived example of myself and our core volunteers must become the norm. We cannot merely be good talkers; we have to do the work ourselves.

In hard times, many people fix their gaze only on the next paycheck. That way of thinking means living day by day, often ending in debt. Many feel trapped in a job they can’t leave, so they pick up side gigs, deliver food, or drive to earn extra cash.

By contrast, a sales profession that truly provides value can turn attitude and experience into a lasting asset. What I emphasize is “value,” not “price.” If you talk only about money, you lose the culture; if you think only about closing a deal, you make it harder to close.

In our long-fasting programs, we speak of equanimity — and this is what it means. If you keep worrying you can’t do it, you’ll struggle; but if you keep your focus on the clarity your body will express when you reach your goal, your worries naturally fade during the process.

I am not a particularly skilled money-maker. I stress this point to counter the societal belief that “being good at making money is the ultimate path,” and to answer outsiders who misunderstand our way of operating.

Our main direction is to nurture many people who truly understand health cultivation. When that social value will spread, I don’t know. I don’t expect short-term returns. But I trust that day will come.

In the midst of hard work, I strive to maintain equanimity. Because I’ve never counted on a great harvest, I’m not easily disappointed; nor am I disheartened when misunderstood or bruised by human nature.

There was a time when the attitudes I encountered at work nearly wore me down to illness. While showering one day, I suddenly remembered the title of an article I had written: “You Must Personally Feel the Emotional Reactions That Trigger Disease.” In that moment, I felt even more certain about the depth and authenticity of my observations on illness.

I often think of Dr. Lissa Rankin’s words: “When your body is in complete relaxation, your immune system is strongest.” These insights were hard-won. I’ve walked far and deep, and even I’m amazed at the clarity I’ve gained.

Whether others understand these realizations is not what matters. Health cultivation is a profound discipline: those who understand you will understand your words; those who don’t — it’s fine.

Every day I remind myself, “keep going.” Every night I tell myself, “continue tomorrow.” My work is often hard to explain. Sometimes I think perhaps only Heaven can truly understand. And so, long ago, I entrusted the outcome to Heaven.